Here it goes

Well here it comes the first of many blogs out ino cyberspace with no location entirely known to others.

I am the biggest nerd i know. And when i say biggest nerd i mean generally people call themselves nerds in hope that some one around them will say "Oh no your not". This is not the case with me. I am a nerd for all of the following reasons:

I am creepy obsessive about Harry Potter i have a nimbus on display in my college dorm room
I was Darth Vador for Halloween last year and i hang the mask up in my room
I spent 5 hours today in barnes and noble reading, and i was perfectly content
I enjoy History and a good old political discussion (especially about education in our national school system)
I YouTube Harry potter when i get bored and... no lie, i write Harry Potter FanFiction

So This week i thought i would blog about several things, first off it was a SAD day in baseball,

Jeff "Baggie" Bagwell has retired, no other Houston Astro will ever where the sacred number 5 jersey. Again it was an incredibly sad day. No other player has done so much for a team, he brought the astros out of the cobb webs. It was not only his clear talent but his leadership that made him what I consider one of the greatest to ever play the game. He played it as it should be played, with heart and not Dollar signs.

The Colorado Rockies made out like bandits in the Astros Trade to get Jason Jennings to Houston. I don't even want to think about how much we will be kicking outselves in the next few years...

MOVING ON

Books. I love books. Every type they just make me smile. I am nearly twenty years old but found myself today among the childrens book section at barnes and noble looking through old classics. Peter Pan= Amazing story, even though Michael Jackson to me perversed it. I read Ally Carter's "I'd Tell you i love you but then id have to kill you" it made me smile in a way that few books can. It made me feel as though adolescence isn't to far behind me and made me wish i could do it all over. Sarah Dessen's This Lullaby i could HIGHLY relate to partiall in my own fear of relationships, but i also SERIOUSLY enjoyed her biting sarcasm... amazing.

The Time Travellers Wife is an amazing book. Weird in its own way, but makes you wish for a love these two people have shared that has overcome everything through time and space for a few wonderful years.

Running With Scissors... okay im not a homophobe, but this book no joke made me vomit in my mouth a bit. There are far too many pedaphelic moments that made me just cringe. I felt like i had to pray after i read the book cuz my mind had been so filled with filth.

I made an update to my story on my fanfic this week. It was a good chapter but im not going to lie im kind of in a pickle about the next one. Its hard to know what to do, and my head hasn't been with me lately. Not to say it has been floating around without my knowledge but sometimes i do think that it goes on vacations and forgets to tell me.

Lastly, as every female college student is, i am baffled by the bizarre and utter question that is boys. Yes boys are a question, and whats the million dollar answer? its different for every boy and none of the answers make sense at the time. Do you pick the boy that makes you laugh? that makes you feel special? the one with the long torrid history? haha or do you just sit down and pray that one day God will drop them on your doorstep and POOF instant romance.

I feel like God is more prevelant in my days at college. While i won't doubt that i have felt a greater separation between me and the big guy since i have been at school i now pray more than ever. It started when one of my best friends mom's got diagnosed with cancer, began prayin and praying for her before i went to bed, then another slew of problems ran over me, it was stressful and so my prayers at night got longer.

I prayed more and more that God would begin to lead me in the right direction and when as my friends call him "bible boy" threw me for a loop i just began to ask God to take the reigns and tell me what i should do, if it was meant to be then to let it be so and if not, it would be okay. At the end of the day it was about what kind of faith i could have in him to present to me my future.

Its an interesting concept that i learned many years ago but didnt start taking notice of until now. Oh well, i am getting up with my most fabulous best friend Kim in the morning and we are headed to the Tanning bed followed perhaps by another lovely day of reading "The Memory Keeper's Daughter" is next on my list.

-- love always
Megan